The Grace Pace

Last week had more hits than Casey Kasem & by Friday morning I was feeling crushed & discouraged.

I knew it was a spiritual attack, but my heart was still heavy & I just couldn’t shake the heaviness or stop the constant loop of pain replaying in my mind as I grasped for understanding.

I moved through a range of emotions, from fear to embarrassment to indignation & eventually to apathy, & it happened quickly.

I was desperate for peace but wanted an explanation.

Sitting in my car, having a private pity party, I asked God to please help me understand what was happening & to search me, reveal anything in me that is out of line so that I can make it right.

“Me, me, me”, right? “God – just show me what I request & then I’ll take it from there!” (Eww, brother, eww!)

I actually laughed at myself as soon as I prayed those words & I smiled because I love how God speaks to me in my own language, like He’s just sitting there listening to me, looking like that Willy Wonka, “Tell me more” meme.

In my full surrender that morning – breakthrough happened in my heart & mind! Through tears & praise, I wrote this message (below) that God wrote on my heart.

I had no idea what was to come that very evening! 

It’s been several months now, and it’s sad how quickly we forget these Holy Spirit moments, but tonight, I have been blessed all over again as I reflect on this time and see how clearly and perfectly God answered my prayer and gave me peace.

My prayer was messy and felt so petty, but it was genuine and He heard the cries of my troubled heart! That’s all He wants!!

Friends, I pray that reading this will be a reminder to you that He never asked us to perform or speak eloquently in order to be heard…In fact He said in Matthew 11:28-30, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

May you find rest in Him today, sweet friend.

Blessings to you,

Brittney

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